with sickness among us, it has been difficult to get a spanking

i know again it has been a little while since my last post. i have again been riddled with infections of various kinds. Whereas the first two were connected the last one was strep. However in amongst all this yuckiness, Sir and i do have some absolutely wonderful news. After having an ectopic (tubal) pregnancy removed in september, W/we have recently discovered that we are pregnant again! So with that said, the severity of my spankings may or may not lessen with time, as i get bigger. And will keep all of you posted with how W/we (and the little) are doing.

and now for the reason that your here!!!

November 14, 2007

This night we again were toying with our new book. This is also the night that i am certain that our newest little one was concieved *grin*

W/we didn't quite have enough rope to make this look like it was supposed to. But i think it looks great none the less.

This session lasted about an hour. And if you look you can see the stripes of my cane. Which i am hoping Sir will use more of, just because it is biggest infliction of pain, with the lowest impact. He has decided that we will have to shelf His belt, just because the impact is so great. It makes me a little sad to have to say goodbye to His belt for so long. But at the same time there are other things that i can get better aquainted with *grin*

This was one of the very first times that Sir used the new wooden paddle on me. It is quite different than the floppy leather one that Sir usually uses on me. It is not my favorite, but i don't hate it either.

Wednesday November 28, 2007


This night was the hardest Sir has ever spanked me. This session lasted for two hours. Sir started with my cane. i took 30 with Him, and then Sir moved onto Red.

After the 30 that i recieved with The Cane, i slowly started to enter sub-space. Sir usually tries to get me to my "red light" point when He spanks me. But this session, i was so into the place where i go when i am recieving that amount of pain, that i didn't even notice what He was implementing me with, nor did i care.

With this picture, you can sort of see the severity of the spanking. After this session, my skin was very taught, and felt like a sunburn. The little red circle that you see is a pair of my anal beads that Sir loves to insert.

This is my favorite picture this session. You can't really see any Cane lines, because they were all covered with the swats of Red. They seemed to go on what felt like forever. And the only reason i wanted to stop was because i NEEDEED Sir to fuck me. Which he did after i begged him to.


And Sir's favorite shot. i know today i have multiple bruises in certain spots. And it is a bit hard to sit today. Which makes me grin in secret. i have no pictures of that because Sir had to leave early for work to send out his resume for a new job... *crosses fingers*

And with a silent sting, it struck me, and i was in awe

Tuesday November 13, 2007

i know that i very rarely put up my pics the same day that i get them, but i am extremely excited about the ones that we took tonight. my cane came in. It showed up today while my in-laws were here. Oh the torture!! Just to go through all of that anticipation all day long, knowing that when we got home later, that It was waiting for me. Just to know that my level of masochism was again going to go up, was a very exhilerating experience.

Sir layed me down over the bed. i was a bit unsure, my heart raced, not knowing what kind of pain i was about to endure. The first swat, was a sweet silent sting. i am more used to Red, my crop, which has a 'whoosh' sound before She strikes me. This was delightfully different.

W/we have started learning the very wonderful art of rope bondage, as taught by Dan, and JD [Two Knotty Boys]. i know this is my spanking log, but bondage comes into play with Sir and i quite a bit. And what we are learning, is useful, asthetically pleasing, it is safe, and it works beautifully. If you are into bondage, i do suggest their book.

Tonight was the first night in at least two weeks, that W/we have done anything that comes close to relieving my tension... i have been pretty miserable without the familiar sting of something on my bottom. Well.. i needed to put this pic up, because i like to be asthetically pleasing too... *grin*

i am not certain how long this session lasted, i even lost count on how many swats Sir was giving me. i felt awful, becuase with something as monumental as the cane is in all spanking, be it for punishment or other wise, i felt like i should have made sure i knew the number of swats. i always do that with my favorite implements, asked or not.

i asked Sir how many, shaking pretty badly because i was crying pretty hard from the pain, and from all of the things that i needed to let out. He told me that it was more than 25. i must remind you, that this O/our first time using a cane, and it will be a learning process for both of us. And i am certain, like all things Sir does, that this is just training, and leading up to full force.

And i don't think that for my very first time, i did too bad. i used to think that the marks that i have recieved tonight, were too brutal for me to manage, and handle. i now hope to be able to achieve marks that look much worse. To be able to increase the strength, and decrease the number of swats that i can manage.

Only after a half an hour, the redness of the swats went away, but what was left are these beautiful welts. You can't see how far above my skin that they are raised, but it is a lot further than anything else that i have experienced. Even as a child. Along with the rope that was once my restraint.

They are not bruised now, and i don't think that these themselves will. But Sir reassures me, that He will be able to make them bruise. And i know full well that He is correct.

Thank you very much Sir, for making me feel so alive. i know right now things haven't been the easiest, and i want to do all that i can to make it better... i will love you until the end of my days... ~your little miss

and after a few mishaps, we are back into action...

whew... it has been a long time since i have posted. But not because i didn't want to. Sir has pretty much gotten back to normal, and we could resume in the darker side of ourselves.

Thursday November 8 2007

i have no pictures for this occasion, because i had accidentally left the camara at my mom's house when we took pictures for halloween (man i hope none of my family tried to look at those...). Anyway. Sir had been feeling bad lately, so i figured that i would cheer him up some. i put on my new boots, and gloves, laid out all of the implements, made him a drink, and turned everything off in the house.

i went to the bedroom, lit three candles, and turned on some HIM, and kneeled on my pillow beside the bed to wait for him. i was not sure of his reaction when he walked in the door. But it felt like he thought that i was already in bed, and asleep. He was surprised to see me however holding out for Him, my collar. He took it from me, and smiled, and turned it around for me to kiss. i always do so with great passion. As i love the fact that i am owned. And after i kiss it he does the same, and i wait to be buckled in.

Sir proceeded to spank me with our various implements, and even a few new ones i decided would be fun to try. Like for example my vent brush. i liked the way it sounded in the air, and i liked the sting. (But Sir would prefer a wooden one, which i don't know how we are going to find.) And a ping-pong paddle. i liked the sound of that more than anything else. It had a really nice 'Crack' to it. But again not to Sir's liking.

So early the next morning, He bought me my cane!!! ^.^ i am extremely excited. Sir has spanked me with a dowel rod before, and then, i didn't like the thought of bruising. i think of them a bit differently now. It should be here tuesday...

So now we are up to date with all of that. On to the pictures!!!

Sunday november 11, 2007
If you have not guessed it already, i don't mind my dark side to show quite a bit. i consider myself a goth. This can lead to some pretty interesting things, both in, and out of the bedroom. And i had recieved a question a while back about if Sir let me wear panties. Well to answer your question, Sir lets me wear whatever i want. He likes my indivuality, along with my submission. In that respect, he wants no control over me, even though he knows he could have it if he wanted, and there are times that i do ask him what he wants me to wear when i am not certain.

This was my 'halloween costume'. i only say that because depending on what outfit i am wearing, i may put on the horns, just to see what kind of looks i get.

Tonights session was only a handspanking, due to the fact that my cane should be coming in shortly. i must admit, that Sir has progressed in using his hand then he used to be. And i love the color that He can make my bottom, just by his hands.

Aah, the boots picture. Sir has always had a big fascination with boots. He likes seeing them, almost as much as i love wearing them. And With the new rope bondage that we are learning by the two knotty boys book (http://www.twokottyboys.com/), the boots help the rope not dig in, and they look good too.

i absolutely love when Sir takes this pic. It is extremely symbolic to me. And the only reason He doesn't have his wedding band on, is because he gives it to me for safe keeping.

A better picture of my horns... *giggle* guess that makes me the horny one doesn't it?

i tried to smile for Him after we were finished, but i was a bit sore... but that is the way we like it...

And we have been put on hold...

So i know i have not posted anything in quite some time... it seems Sir and i have been put on a bit of a hiatus... even though i really wish we wouldn't be... The 28th of October, He was diagnosed with bell's palsy. It is an infection of the nerve, and the entire left side of his face was pretty much disabled. He had to wear an eye patch for a while, because he couldn't close his eye. So with that in mind, he really didnt' want to implement me, for my safety. Hopefully He will be up for it tonight... i haven't worn my collar for it's main purpose in more than a week... :-( Also we have all been sick, and that doesn't make for a good session either... "WAIT!!! I AM DROWNING IN MY OWN MUCUS!!!" not my idea of sexy... >.< so hopefully things will be up and running again shortly... i feel myself slipping away into depression without it...