some teary rememberances

Sunday September 23,2007

This night, was pretty much a routine spanking. Mostly with the hand. It was a 45 minute session, and i took more than 100 swats. i lost count somewhere after that... Sir always goes so fast, and my head is usually spinning...

my bottom is very sore in this picture. i still had bruises from the night before. the cool air from the air conditioner running over my freshly spanked skin, made it burn even more.

i am totally, and completely at Sir's mercy. He owns me, body, mind, soul, and will.

Tears are still falling down my face. But i am free... i have never felt so liberated.... and i love him so much for it.

Sir loves this picture. He tells me that even though he can see the pain, he can also see the love that i have for him...

Monday September 24, 2007

There are no pictures for tonight... Sir really didn't even want me to post anything for tonight... But it was done, so i need to post it...

i have been thinking a lot about our tragedy, which i care not to discuss. i was extremely sad, and very envious of some of my friends that are pregnant, and others that have had no problems with pregnancy...

So Sir had me across his lap on the couch. And he knew that i needed something other than the usual. Well about 20 minutes into it, i yelled at him... i was ashamed as soon as i yelled. i couldn't even look at him. He took me to the bedroom, and told me that he knew that i was sorry. I appologized profusely... He also told me that he wasn't going to punish me, be i did owe his something for my disrespect. By this time, i was already bawling out of control. i didn't know how he could even look at me, much less touch me... but he told me again, that i did owe him something. He asked me if i could take ten with the belt. I was crying so hard at the shame, that i could only nod my head. i didn't think i could, but i did. i couldn't even count out loud... but i took all ten of them...

When Sir oiled my bottom, there were already welts forming, and they were already black and blue... i know i deserved them. And he forgave me... he held me for a long time after. Just telling me how much he loved me. And i know he does...

Thank you, Sir... i will do anything to please you...