My new aspect on my old lifestyle

Hello. My name is thelittlemiss. I am a collared wife, so much in love with my Sire... We have always been into spanking, and bondage. When we were younger, we tried out the Master/slave thing, which neither of us enjoyed. He then went on to be my "Daddy". We role played a lot, and i would sass sometimes, to get the beating that i felt that i "Deserved".

Well spanking in general came to almost a complete hault when i got pregnant with our first child. He would still spank me. but the severety, and accurances died out to almost completely nothing. I being a masochist, reverted back to cutting, when things got bad.

Util recently, i was ok, until a crisis struck. I became severly depressed. And then one night as we lay there in bed, the topic of spanking came up again. I had told him that i could go for a warm bottom, and without warning, he rolled me over, and spanked me... hard.. I felt so free, so alive. The stinging of my ass, as repeatedly his hand struck the bare flesh of my ass, was very cleansing... it made me feel alive. The tears that i wept that night, were from pain, but more importantly, they let me release the emotion that i was feeling for my loss. The anger, the hurt, the depression... all went away with the stinging i felt. It was the first time, that he had given me his full force...

That night we decided together, that i needed serious spankings, on a daily basis. And Sir told me that with the pictures that he took, i was to make a log... i hope to please him with it... I love you Sir...

Tuesday September 18, 2007

This is the first day we started taking pictures. I don't recall how long, nor do i remember how many... but Sir spanked me to tears. Not because i was 'bad' or 'naughty', but just because i needed to 'vent'...

i look over my shoulder at him, tears still in my eyes... "Thank you Sir... "

i know i need this. And i know he loves me very much. I thank him, that he loves me enough to allow me the pain that i need to survive...

Wednesday September 19, 2007

This day i was severely depressed, and needed Sir's full force...

And then i got the belt...

This is all for now... Sir i hope i have pleased you...