Tuesday October 2, 2007
This night, i asked Sir for special attention. i have been extremely depressed, and thinking about things that i have no control over. The night before, i was in quite the mood, and i felt really bad about it. So this day, i got up at 7 with our daughter, and cleaned the whole house, and made a wonderful dinner to make up for it. Even though i didn't feel any better... If you look to my right, you can see my new favorite implement... <3>
This night, i asked Sir for special attention. i have been extremely depressed, and thinking about things that i have no control over. The night before, i was in quite the mood, and i felt really bad about it. So this day, i got up at 7 with our daughter, and cleaned the whole house, and made a wonderful dinner to make up for it. Even though i didn't feel any better... If you look to my right, you can see my new favorite implement... <3>
This session lesson lasted more than an hour. Sir spanked me with his hand at first. Then i recieved a special treat. i recieved a braided leather belt, and my ever loving crop on top of that. i don't know how many of anything else i got, but i recieved 33 swats with the belt.
As you can probably tell, i really needed to cry this session. i pushed myself WAY over my limit. When i usually would call "yellow", i was still going green. Sir told me he was very proud of me this time. And i am very proud of him, too. We were both stronger than usual.
These are pictures that i can be proud of. Very unlike the last ones i posted. Sir was very proud of me too... 
This is the hardest that i have ever been spanked in my entire life. But it was VERY needed, and VERY wanted. And it makes me smile a little, to know that i can take it. 
You can see the welts already starting to form... which will later become bruises.
Aah, the beautiful marks, that i have to hide underneath my clothes...
i smile everytime i have to sit down in public, and i feel that pain. It is kind of like a trophy that i have won, but only Sir and i know about it.
The sting of my spankings, always goes away way too fast... but bruising i can hold onto... Sir always asks if i like them. And i have never been able to lie to Him. So i honestly tell him yes... [Sir, now you know why]
Thank you, Sir... i love you with every fiber of my being... anything you want... it's yours....
I enjoyed your blog very much. I truly believe in the therapeutic effect of spanking. I receive spankings for therapy, discipline, and sensual fun. I think you and your special Sir have found a wondeful way to deal with your problems in venting your feelings. I hope it continues to work for you.
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Purple Angel
thank you very much!! it is a very theraputic way for me to express what i normally can not... it worked in the past, and seems to be working wonders for the both of us now... thank you again.. and i hope it does too.
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~tlm